Final Thoughts for a While

Yes, it is true. This will be my last post for a while. Things in my life are getting insanely busy and I am am to the point in my year that I barely have enough time to sleep. We are talking 4 to 5 hours a day for 5 or so weeks. Yeah, it sucks but such is life.

I have been working on this post for a while, mainly trying to decide whether or not to actually post it. The thing is, I have been examining myself and my life. I come up short in most areas, but some I have found that I am doing better than my previous examination. The last time I did this was in January (right after I broke things off with Tiffany). I did look at things before then also and figured out which road to travel down. One thing I know about myself is the fact that I need to grow up. I have been working on it and I am getting there. You can only stay a stupid and immature kid so long. There are still things I want to change, can change, and then there are things that no matter what I do, can't be changed.

Here are the major two things in my life that I would like to change. The first one is something I have been working on, but I don't know if it will ever change. Simply put, I am tired of being alone. I know the single life has its perks, but I am ready to let it go and move on. The second change will probably never happen because I am loyal to a fault to those I love and care about. I am tired of my job and I want out. The only problem is that I do too much and have too many responsibilities and I can't abandon the family business. I know it sounds arrogant, but I am needed too much and there is no one that can do my job. If only you could see what I do day in and day out. Friends of ours have said for years now that I run the business and my dad is just there for PR. It is sad, but true.

Here is another random tidbit. I look at old friend's blogs and am filled with emotions. First it is excitement and joy and then that shifts to sadness and a slight bit of depression. I am happy for everyone and see that they are living great lives and moving forward. I am saddened because I look at where I am and it seems that I am standing still or digressing. I truly have no direction and I don't know where things will go from here in my life. All I can do is trust in GOD and follow the path HE has laid out for me.

Side note, the weather up here sucks. One day it is mid 60's and the next it is in the mid 40's. We have had more rain than I can ever remember. I am tired of our weather and wish it would turn nice for a bit. It has been a much cooler year than I can ever recall. We are suppose to get snow and rain mix most of the week. Oh what fun, not really. They are predicting above normal precipitation for the whole winter. That means a ton of early mornings headed to work to shovel snow (4:30 or 5 to get it done before we open). I appreciate everyone who reads this blog and I will do my best to post as soon as I can. Until then, have a wonderful time.