Christmas

I know everyone loves Christmas and for different reasons. I am not so much a Christmas fan. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy it but it is also a sad and depressing time for me in some strange ways. Nothing has ever happened this time of year to bring a dark cloud over the holiday season. Here is one reason it bothers me. All the commercial pressure and undue stress it places on people. I am fortunate (I thank GOD all the time) enough that I don't feel the pressure and have the financial constraints. I do what I want to do for everyone I want to do it for. I spend a decent amount of money on friends and family and I gladly do it. That is the only part that brings me real joy. I don't like getting things, except cards that help me keep in touch with friends. I need nothing, and if I did need something I usually buy it. It rips my heart out seeing and hearing about kids who get nothing. I make it my goal to help out families I don't even know, but need help, so they can have a decent Christmas. It has become a tradition for my mom and I, actually. My mom and I get a list from the Church and we buy presents for every single kid on that list. We also buy food and drop it at the Church so they can have a nice Christmas meal. I am not telling you this for praise or to pat myself on the back, but maybe to inspire you to do the same. It does my heart more good doing this than anything. It is the best pick me up and brings the largest smile to my face. I just can't help but smiling knowing I helped someone out.

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My oldest sister, her husband, and Tonka (their mini shitzu) get here on Saturday and I can't wait. I love them all. My other sister, her husband, my niece, and my Grandmother fly in on Monday. It will be a good time, but it does get a little sad for me. I love them all and enjoy their company, but they make me long for a similar life. I get lonely and long for someone to share the moments with and not be the odd man out. It starts to suck after a while. It isn't so bad until everyone gets here and I only have to deal with it for 2 days. I can handle it. I only get Christmas day off, which actually makes things easier because I have an out which lets me deal with people and get away. I am wondering how Thor will treat Tonka. They know each other, but Thor can be a pain in the butt to other male dogs at times.

Anyway, I want to wish all a Merry Christmas. I hope all is well and great for you. GOD bless.