Bullet Points to the Head

As all of you can figure out, there will be no movie post this week because I didn't have the chance to watch a movie. Things are busy for me and all the tivo'd television programs are starting to annoy me. They are shows I enjoy and want to watch, but just sometimes don't have the time to. I had 26 hours of recorded shows when I checked the other day. Oh well.

A few of you are wondering what is going on with Tiffany and I. That is a great question and I really wish I had a more solid answer to give you. The honest fact of the matter is that I am not totally sure. We are friends and we are getting along wonderfully. The thing that makes me wonder if there is not more on the horizon is the fact that she and I talk quite a bit. We actually have a conversation at least twice a week. We talk for about an hour each time. The odd part about this is that I don't do that with anyone else, not even my family. I can't tell you how many text messages are sent between the two of us. My phone is always telling me that memory is low and that I need to clean out my messages. Anyway, the real way I am looking at what is going on is that we are close friends. If things change, that would be awesome. The only thing is that for things to change, she is going to have to move to Colorado from Alabama. I won't and more to the point, can't move. I have now moved more into the phase of me running the business and my dad just being the figure head. I am fine with that but it does shift the stress more on me. That is a good thing since he turns 60 this year.

At 30 I should have some stress. Thankfully, it isn't that much and it is only work related. The only other stress I have in my life is paying bills and trying to find a house to buy. Paying bills is really no stress. I don't spend more than I make. Actually, I put about 1/4 of my paycheck into some mutual funds each month. House hunting is driving me nuts. I would have to double my paycheck to buy a house in this town. I am working now on trying to find some land and then build a house on it and that is interesting there also. So really there are no updates on that front. I want about an acre of land so I can raise Great Danes. I would love to start a Dane farm. Side project that may not ever happen.

I have to admit this and all of you know this and have known this for a long time. I am an idiot and I am a fairly private person. People I know get mad at me all the time and tell me about it. It is usually because when I am on my own time and away from work, I keep to myself. I go to the grocery store with a list and a plan and I keep my head down and get it done. Away from work my modo is "Speak when spoken to". At work I have to be nice and friendly to everyone that I see. It gets old and you start to get worn down by it. Everyone wants to know everything about everyone and that annoys me. I am fine knowing what people tell me. The other fact is that there are only a few people that I even start a conversation with. Even at the gym, people want to talk to me and delay my workout. I am there to abuse myself, not to jibber jabber. Once the headphones are on, I ignore everyone. I realized yesterday that a really attractive girl was talking to me and by the time I noticed what was going on, it was too late. There are downsides to my approach, I know. Once I was off of that machine, I looked for the girl to apologize, but she was gone. Oh well.

Honestly, things are good with me. I can't complain about my life. GOD has been good to me. The reality is that I am better than I deserve. If you really think you life is bad or that you have a lot of pain, go visit a nursing home. It will do you and your soul good to see just how blessed your life is. No matter how bad you think you have it, there is always someone in worse shape.