Grow Up

As all of you know, I need to grow up. I admit it. I still see myself as a kid and even act that way. I don't know why, maybe it is because I work with my father and I see people I have seen for years that I grew up with. Whatever the reason, I feel like a less of an adult and sometimes act like less of one than I probably should. I do know that physically I am not a kid anymore and I have to pace myself and there are more pains every morning than there were the previous day. I know that I am closing in on 30, it doesn't scare me, and I actually see myself more about 20 most days. Granted I have a ton of responsibilities that I couldn't have handled 10 years ago. There are some things that I have matured up to and there are others that I am dragging on. When I think about the fact that my parents already had all three of us by this age and that most of my friends have kids, that is when it slaps me in the face that I am old (or getting there). Also, when I actually decide to do something responsible, like trying to buy a house instead of a Corvette, I realize that part of me has grown up and that it is waiting on the rest of me to catch up. I am not a kid anymore and I need to start acting closer to my age. I will work on it, but I make no guaranties.