Used

That is the way I feel these days, Used. I don't feel this way towards most people or from most people. There is just this one girl in my life that I feel this way toward and from. She only contacts me when she needs something. We are (were, I haven't quite decided what to do) friends or so I thought. I don't have any other friends that use me like this girl does. It doesn't help me that I am actually attracted to this girl. The worst part is that the attraction is only physical. Anyway, like I said, she only calls or texts me when she wants to borrow one of my vehicles, wants me to give her a ride, wants me to pick up something for her, or if she needs to borrow money. Yes, I am an easy target and I know it. I have asked her out, and I get some really lame excuses or we set something up and she bails on me at the last second. It is like she wants everything I have, except she doesn't want anything to do with me and definitely doesn't want to be seen in public with me. I can understand that, I look at myself in the mirror everyday. It was funny to me because on Saturday night she called me and only wanted to know if she could borrow my truck to get from her work to her house (she works as a nanny close to where I live, I mean within 2 blocks). I told her no (Blair would be happy and proud [he has been helping me see the error of my ways and showing me how much of an idiot I am]) and then about 3:30 she text messages me begging me to let her use a vehicle or give her a ride home when I went to work. I ignored the text message and then about 9:30 on Sunday she sent me another one asking if I would leave work and take her home. I told her again that I couldn't help her. The worst part is that I feel terrible and like a bad friend because I didn't help out. I know that I need to be strong and actually do something about this because I am tired of this game she plays me with. I guess I am just too nice. I am thinking about telling her my thoughts and giving up on our friendship (can you consider it a friendship if it is 1 sided?). I would appreciate any thoughts any of you would like to hit me with.